God’s Embarassing Love- Reminiscing over Relient K

I was sitting at my computer today compiling an iTunes playlist of my favorite songs, one from each band on my iTunes, for my wife to have while I’m out of town this next week (It’s half sweet and half an inside joke about how she was so worried going into our premarital counseling because she could not remember if my favorite band was Pearl Jam or Nirvana (It’s Nirvana!)), and so anyways, I got to my Relient K albums and in picking out my favorite song from among them I was reminded of this incredible song that appeared on their first big album called “I am Understood?”

Now, I know that Relient K is not (a) the coolest band nor (b) the deepest lyrically, but this song really says what I’ve often felt in such a profound yet blunt way.  The lyrics are this:

Sometimes it’s embarrassing to talk to you
To hold a conversation with the only one who sees right through
This version of myself
I try to hide behind
I’ll bury my face because my disgrace will leave me terrified

And sometimes I’m so thankful for your loyalty
Your love regardless of
The mistakes I make will spoil me
My confidence is, in a sense, a gift you’ve given me
And I’m satisfied to realize you’re all I’ll ever need

You looked into my life and never stopped
And you’re thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood

And sometimes I spend my time
Just trying to escape
I work so hard so desperately, in an attempt to create space
Cause I want distance from the utmost important thing I know
I see your love, then turn my back and beg for you to go

You looked into my life and never stopped
And you’re thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood


You’re the only one who understands completely
You’re the only one knows me yet still loves completely  And sometimes the place I’m at is at a loss for words
If I think of something worthy I know that its already yours
And through the times I’ve faded and you’ve outlined me again
You’ve just patiently waited, to bring me back and then    

You looked into my life and never stopped
And you’re thinking all my thoughts
Are so simple, but so beautiful
And you recite my words right back to me
Before I even speak
You let me know, I am understood


The noise has broken my defense
Let me embrace salvation
Your voice has broken my defense
Let me embrace salvation

Wow!  I mean, just read that first line: “Sometimes it’s embarrassing to talk to you, to hold a conversation with the only one who sees right through this version of myself I try to hide behind.” That is right where I am every time I have to come to God asking for forgiveness over the next in my long string of offenses (never mind all the ones I don’t feel the need to ask special forgiveness over).

Or what about, “If I think of something worthy I know that its already yours”?  So often we think that our words and show is so impressive to God when really it’s already his to begin with.  It reminds me of Paul in Acts 17 where he says, “The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man, nor is he served by human hands, as though he needed anything, since he himself gives to all mankind life and breath and everything” (vv.24-25).  We never really seem to get this, do we?.  

Again, please read this and let the lyrics sink in.  Like I said, they’re surprisingly deep and will make a big impact on your worship and prayer if you let them.  Enjoy!

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