“For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.” -Ephesians 3.14-17a
“I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.” -Romans 12.1
At 7:30am I lifted up a prayer that God may remove any burden of sin I may be feeling at that time, any feelings of unworthiness which would separate me from Him, so that I may serve Him well this day. At 8:45am a wave swept over me, warming my insides and doing just as I’d asked. By 6:15pm I sat in the sanctuary, after teaching two lessons of my own, hearing one sermon and sitting through one Sunday School class, and all I could feel in worshiping at this time was the tingling hug of the Spirit around my body.
So many Sundays come and go without so much fanfare. Today was nothing special to begin with, but for whatever reason, on this day the Lord moved in my heart in ways that are hard to explain. Nothing really changed, and yet the impact of being in His presence this day was so great. The knowledge of His glory and power and mercy and grace was so satisfying that it was all that consumed my thoughts.
My day to day life is filled with distractions at all places, making the attributes of God a mere intellectual exercise to talk about. But for one day, those things which I try to pin down through reading and writing fine words became so real and so inexpressible that I understand why I so infrequently get it. Words are not nearly enough.
Standing there with that feeling makes me understand why David dances unashamedly before the Lord and declares that “I will make merry before the LORD. I will make myself yet more contemptible than this” (2 Samuel 6.16-22). It is in feeling this that I understand Jeremiah who says “If I say, ‘I will not mention him, or speak any more in his name,’ there is in my heart as it were a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I am weary with holding it in, and I cannot” (Jeremiah 20.9). My whole body wants to dance and proclaim the greatness of God! How amazing!
I know that very shortly I shall sin, become distracted and lose focus on this indescribable moving which God has done in me. But for the moment I am grasped by the love of Christ, which fulfills my soul and surpasses my knowledge (Ephesians 3.19), and all I can be is thankful for what He has done! Hallelujah!